I’m in a mental state where I’m always exhausted but today I woke up extra early – at least by my standards, I woke up at 6:30 am – showered, did my hair (curly hair needs extra care haha!), skincare routine and I even bothered doing some makeup! Before that, I even did my morning pages (I’m doing “The Artist’s Way” by Julia Cameron right now) out in the early sunlight and was drinking some Indian ginger coffee with oat milk.
I feel much better than yesterday. Yesterday I was just sleeping all day and was low and miserable. Just imagine what some glamour magick can do! Yep, I transformed my mind and state by altering my appearance AND I did some oracle card reading, some praying, and a little ritual embedded into my morning glamour routine.
I’m very much into the dark goddess Lilith right now. It goes hand in hand with glamour magick and shadow work. I’ve made a new altar for Lilith and Hekate and I also cleaned my ancestor altar.
When the evening came I did some sex magick with Bellesa sex toys as well. I even used a yoni egg made of obsidian to honor Lilith. “Self-pleasuring” is a truly wonderful thing to empower, heal my sexual trauma, explore myself, and take back my sexuality from when I was a Christian (and also from when I was raped). It feels like Christianity robs humanity of their sexuality. It also felt like R robbed me of my sexuality when he decided to rape me in 2020. Now when I’m no longer Christian, I feel like it’s empowering to do a little ritual with my self-pleasure. I also feel like I’m slowly healing.
I haven’t been very much outside today, but I still did my makeup and skincare/haircare. It’s empowering and magickal to do such things just for myself, even when I’m not going anywhere.
Now I have changed my dress to a nightgown. I like it and it makes me feel beautiful and sexy – even if I’m just here alone, just being me…
/ Trix.